The Library of Babel – Jorge Luis Borges

Jorge Luis Borges – The Library of Babel

This is the key text that I wish to build my piece around; I chose it for a number of reasons.

Firstly, Borges’ imagery in this short story has stuck with me since I first came across the piece a year or so ago; that a ‘library’ doesn’t have to be just that, but can be eloquently translated into a haunting metaphor for the universe.

Secondly, I personally think that that metaphor is amazingly beautiful and powerful; are we, inhabitants of this universe, not all stories waiting to be read? Are we not all unique, full of meaning yet at times uninterpretable? Are we not all allocated a time and place and yet, are movable and transient? Do we not all try and read others in our search for understanding?

Thirdly, I like maths. I find a comfort in the structured organisation of solvable equations and projectable hypotheses. If I could therefore create Borges’ library, or at least a small part of it, I could perhaps create a space that is simultaneously abstract, irresolute and yet tangible and even reassuring. Creating the library seemed to me the perfect setting in which to order and represent my ideas.

Lastly, I wished to address the construct of storytelling, seeking knowledge through the written word and the reverence we assign such writing. Creating a library which was representative of the universe, centred on words, stories and books would, in my opinion, therefore highlight and amplify their status, and so be an ideal setting in which to question their purpose and power.

Poetry From My Past

I’m going to put this in here as I’ve always loved this poem and have often thought about staging it performatively…


 

My Last Duchess – Robert Browning

FERRARA

 

That’s my last Duchess painted on the wall,

Looking as if she were alive. I call

That piece a wonder, now; Fra Pandolf’s hands

Worked busily a day, and there she stands.

Will’t please you sit and look at her? I said

“Fra Pandolf” by design, for never read

Strangers like you that pictured countenance,

The depth and passion of its earnest glance,

But to myself they turned (since none puts by

The curtain I have drawn for you, but I)

And seemed as they would ask me, if they durst,

How such a glance came there; so, not the first

Are you to turn and ask thus. Sir, ’twas not

Her husband’s presence only, called that spot

Of joy into the Duchess’ cheek; perhaps

Fra Pandolf chanced to say, “Her mantle laps

Over my lady’s wrist too much,” or “Paint

Must never hope to reproduce the faint

Half-flush that dies along her throat.” Such stuff

Was courtesy, she thought, and cause enough

For calling up that spot of joy. She had

A heart—how shall I say?— too soon made glad,

Too easily impressed; she liked whate’er

She looked on, and her looks went everywhere.

Sir, ’twas all one! My favour at her breast,

The dropping of the daylight in the West,

The bough of cherries some officious fool

Broke in the orchard for her, the white mule

She rode with round the terrace—all and each

Would draw from her alike the approving speech,

Or blush, at least. She thanked men—good! but thanked

Somehow—I know not how—as if she ranked

My gift of a nine-hundred-years-old name

With anybody’s gift. Who’d stoop to blame

This sort of trifling? Even had you skill

In speech—which I have not—to make your will

Quite clear to such an one, and say, “Just this

Or that in you disgusts me; here you miss,

Or there exceed the mark”—and if she let

Herself be lessoned so, nor plainly set

Her wits to yours, forsooth, and made excuse—

E’en then would be some stooping; and I choose

Never to stoop. Oh, sir, she smiled, no doubt,

Whene’er I passed her; but who passed without

Much the same smile? This grew; I gave commands;

Then all smiles stopped together. There she stands

As if alive. Will’t please you rise? We’ll meet

The company below, then. I repeat,

The Count your master’s known munificence

Is ample warrant that no just pretense

Of mine for dowry will be disallowed;

Though his fair daughter’s self, as I avowed

At starting, is my object. Nay, we’ll go

Together down, sir. Notice Neptune, though,

Taming a sea-horse, thought a rarity,

Which Claus of Innsbruck cast in bronze for me!


 

I have loved this poem since I first discovered it during my English GCSE, and the drama student in me has always thought how well it lends itself to a live performance. In terms of its relation to my solo, I think the idea of there being more than one side to a story; the Duchess’s, the Duke’s even the priest’s and the envoy’s, and there being more than one way of telling it; the painting itself, the Duke’s spoken confession, our re-reading of it, struck a chord with my ideas for the kind of piece I wanted to create. I did not want to write a neatly bound, beginning, middle and end, but rather question our deification of such ‘perfect’ stories and create a way of inviting the audience to do the same. Also, the Duke’s collection of trophies in this poem is not entirely dissimilar to my curator character’s collection of books.


 

Browning, Robert (1842), ‘My Last Duchess’, Online: http://www.poetryfoundation.org/poem/173024 (accessed 5 March 2015)

Insecurity

Trying to reign in / pin down concrete show ideas ready to put them forward in class. Help.

What I’ve got isn’t bad, it’s a show, or what could be. It just doesn’t yet feel like it’s doing my final undergraduate performance justice. Solo is an opportunity to put something out there, something of your own making, a piece of you for the world to see and judge and remember you by… currently, I feel a bit like I’m hosting a children’s tv show. It’s nice. And I think it’s nice because apparently I’m nice.

I get told this a lot, ‘Oh, you’

re so sweet’ ‘She’s such a nice girl’…

A ‘nice’ performance is not what I am aiming for. Now I’m not intending to go all Artaud and mentally scar my audience, but I would like to leave them with something more than ‘Yeah, that was nice… Whose is next?’

Journeying Through Journaling

The greatest challenge I am facing in creating a solo performance is content. This is an amazing opportunity to tell a story in a dynamic and unique way, but which story do I tell, whose story is worth telling, what story do you want to hear, why do I need to tell it?

We’ve undergone a couple of exercises around diary / journal writing to explore creating personal content. I found these tasks both interesting and challenging, and more interesting because they were challenging.

What do I really have to say? Using a diary format incited writing as a release or for reportage as opposed to creating text to be performed. I learnt a number of things;

The English student in me has a pretty poetic writing style.

The Drama student in me has a performatively structured way of relaying information.

I write with vocal expression – underlining/capitalising for emphasis, using punctuation to create spoken tone, bracketing side thoughts etc.

I talk (an embarrassing amount) about boys.

I balance emotional turmoil with comedy and sarcasm, even when I’m writing to no one.

I have proven my anxiety about loss, losing things came up a lot.

 


 

Quotes of note;

“NO LUCIE I DON’T KNOW, I DON’T KNOW ANYTHING, I DON’T KNOW WHY I’M HERE OR WHAT I’M DOING WITH MY LIFE.”

“What else can I say but the truth?”

“I can’t really put my finger on what it was, it just felt significant.”

“…tell him that I’d lost his gift from – when even was it? Last birthday? The Christmas before? He’d know. That he would remember even if he didn’t care to admit it and that realisation made me want to tell him even more. Why? To see his reaction I guess, how he’d react to me having lost another bit of him. But no, we’ve done enough of that. SO here I am, writing instead, with pen & paper holding on to yet another loss.”

“Not sure that’s exactly what I mean by an uncertainty/disillusionment with where we’re going vs. where we’ve been inc. all associated expectations…”

“Town was full of prepubescent couples and it made me feel sceptical. What’s become of me?”

“*Realisation* There’s a difference between attachment to material things & sentimental things…It’s an inexplicable feeling -loss- part physical, emotional, a little il/logical. The loss of the representation of my attachment to my parents doesn’t lessen that connection. But does representing it materially affirm/enhance it?…”

“Stupid old lady! NO MISSED OPPORTUNITIES! Gah…Can I call it a date? ‘Tbh, I’m open for anything’ WHAT DOES THAT EVEN MEAN?! Food, drinks, roller disco? I will not become a booty call, I will not, I will not become…Did I mention that this boy can Squat me? Why do I even life that…Oh help. Behave. I am a terrible person.”

“I don’t know what the deal is / what game we’re playing. If I don’t know the game how can I understand the rules!…I DON’T LIKE ALL THIS UNCERTAINTY – Who am I kidding. It’s 70% of the fun!”


 

Twitter Extracts;

“Isn’t it fucking terrifying that no matter how many promises they’ve made, no matter how long you’ve been together, someone can get up and walk out of your life without a second thought and you have to carry on living because the world doesn’t stop for any of us”

“Why should I be sad? I have lost someone who didn’t love me. But they lost someone who loved them.”

“-‘I’ve grown up, I’ve got my own life now’

-‘I know that! I just wanted to be a part of it.’”

“I JUST REALLY WANNA BE FRIENDS WITH SOME PEOPLE BUT I JUST CAN’T START CONVERSATIONS IT’S NOT THAT I’M SHY I JUST REALLY SUCK AT BEING A HUMAN”

“I am not even sure that I miss you/ Or that I am in love with you/ I just miss the thought of you,/ And the thought of being in love with you.// The desire to feel your lips/ Softly against mine / Your hands running against my back/ Your fingers intertwined within my own// I miss the way you made me feel/ Safe.”


 

Currently, I have no idea whether any / all of that will be pulled into my final performance. I think I like my tone / rhythm so perhaps I’ll try and write the ‘script’ as me / from me. I need to play with content and decide how autobiographical / personal experience based my chosen ‘story’ will be. I’m unsure as to whether content is really the bit I’m interested in. If I’m not going to do something like the phoenix idea, I think I’d rather explore form and storytelling itself.

Marina & Initial Ideas

I knew very little about the ‘grandmother of performance art’ before I was asked to present on Marina Abramović. Though my research and presentation centred on specific performances, here I will avoid being descriptive and instead focus on the influence researching Abramović had on me personally and the kind of ideas I’d like to take from her into my own work.

I learnt that Abramović pioneered performance as a visual art form, what we may refer to as performance art.

For Abramović, this means marrying;

1. Concept with  physicality

2. Endurance with empathy

3. Complicity with loss of control

4. Passivity with danger

(1)

For me, these mean;

  1. Embodying and symbolising a theoretical concept in a physical / creative performance
  2. Taking the performative action of a piece and making it a notable part of the concept, extending its duration to provoke a person, internal, emotional response in the audience
  3. Challenging oneself to go beyond the controlled environment of a performance, allowing for an external factor – be it time, audience participation or an unpredictable element such as fire – to the development of a piece and one’s own response to it as a performer
  4. Pushing the boundary between the safe, stationary known and the precarious, fluid unknown by challenging both performer and audience to act upon an instinct and respond organically to a situation

 

Rhythm 10, her reproduction piece based on Russian roulette with knives, aimed to merge the past and the present, exploring physical and mental limits with performance and attempting to recreate authentic/organic responses as well as consider the state of consciousness. (2) On the final point Abramović says; “once you enter into the performance state you can push your body to do things you absolutely could never normally do”. (3)

Though personally I would not be interested in exploring such physical risk in performance, I would be intrigued to know whether unplanned, unmediated performance could lead to learning new things about oneself, whether a kind of unknowable element could lead to thoughts or emotions one ‘absolutely could never normally’ find.

Rhythm 5, is a piece in which she created a sawdust 5 point star and set fire to it, before jumping into its centre. For Abramović , this work led to a realisation that there is a physical limit to performance; “when you lose consciousness you can’t be present, you can’t perform.” (4)

What really interested me were the implied notions of purging, sacrificing and transforming energy. I hadn’t before considered how fire could be used in performance for something more than spectacle, it really caught my attention as a beautifully symbolic way of combining the notions I mentioned above with the innate, raw connection I have with fire and the emotions it provokes in me.

I will also mention a three part piece called Freeing the Body, which included Freeing the Memory and Freeing the Voice, for a comment on the latter of these performances. (5) Watching a video performance of Freeing the Voice, I was struck with how much emotion is conveyed and developed through such a simple performance; where Abramović simply lays on her back and repeats a single sound over and over until she loses her voice. What caught my interest was the idea that the development of such emotion appears unplanned, as though the performance evolved in such a way of its own accord, because of the act of performing for such a long period of time.

This links back to my idea from Rhythm 10 about finding unexpected things through challenging, durational performance.


 

Were I to create a piece based on Abramović’s work, I would take my influence from the above pieces; her ideas of audience participation as exploring themselves through her performance, and  the self-described notion of her work as a “quest for emotional and spiritual transformation”. (6) I’d like to create an installation, a durational piece in which I built a library of sorts; a collection of memories and experiences transformed into physical ‘books’ or sculptures. These memories/experiences would be specific elements of my life that I struggle to come to terms with in some way; lingering feelings about a breakup, underlying issues in other relationships I’ve never been able to address, fears, regrets etc.  I then envisage inviting an audience to peruse my library, laying my past bare for them to explore, read and touch, perhaps I would add a performative element in reading or explaining items they had picked up or perhaps I’d just explore them myself too. I’d then like to have some kind of stand in which I could set fire to each of these things after they’d been ‘read’, perhaps again inviting the audience to take part in this ritual-esque performance, purging myself of all the things that I hadn’t been able to let go of. We could then watch the fire die down together. In full Marina spirit I could then imagine climbing into the stand and covering myself in the ashes, before inviting the audience to wash them off me – the phoenix reborn from the ashes of its past life.


 

(1) Lisson Gallery: Marina Abramović, Online: http://www.lissongallery.com/artists/marina-abramovic (accessed 2 February 2015).

(2) Abramović, Marina (1973) Rhythm 10, Online: http://www.medienkunstnetz.de/works/rhythm-10-2/ (accessed 2 February 2015).

(3) Art Tattler: Marina Abramović (2008), Online: http://arttattler.com/archivemarinaabramovic.html (accessed 2 February 2015).

(4) Fischer, Lucia (2014), The Memorable Rhythm Performances, Online: http://www.riseart.com/article/2014-11-28-most-memorable-rhythm-performances-by-marina-ambrovic (accessed 2 February 2015).

(5) Abramović, Marina (1975/1976), Freeing the Body, Online: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ihDy3dD-iUg (accessed 2 February 2015).

(6) O’Hagan, Sean (2010), Interview: Marina Abramović, Online: http://www.theguardian.com/artanddesign/2010/oct/03/interview-marina-abramovic-performance-artist (accessed 2 February 2015).